This week the cheating began on Tuesday and there has been something every day. I’ve managed to stay dairy free and meat free but everything else has been broken in some way shape or form. And on Sunday I am suffering for it. I am sore, have a migraine from hell and my eyes are stinging.
It began after a difficult bike ride. I managed the four miles in to town. But then I had a Fanta. I needed something cold, wet and fizzy and full of sugar. In hindsight I should have packed a banana. Later in the evening I had a beer.
Then at my mothers I had forgotten to take my oatcakes so whilst I stuck to the rest of the diet I had Crackerbreads and allowed myself a glass of wine.
It really has just gone downhill. There’s been one thing after another and you know what aside from the glass of wine none of it has been worth the pain.
I’ve learned a lot and hopefully I won’t make the same dumb mistakes again. Because I’d forgotten how much things could hurt.
Today has been good – I’ve had my smoothie, a bowl of soup, loads of water and bean casserole for dinner. I won’t be having anything else.
Things are still going well on the leaky gut diet. I’ve got more energy and I’ve also managed to shift some weight for the first time in ages.
At the start of this I decided not to weigh myself so I don’t know how much I’ve lost. I do know my PJ trousers fell down this morning and all my clothes are fitting better so I left the house with a swing to my hips today.
Despite many temptations I’ve stuck to the basics with a treat day on Tuesday where I go to the chippy for Egg, chips and a bottle of Lilt (Totally Tropical Man) and then head to the Co-Op for a dark chocolate and marzipan bar. Even then it can take me two weeks to eat the chocolate bar.
Health wise I am doing much better going to bed before midnight most nights and actually sleeping right through until morning. Getting up at 8am-9am is easier every day. Fatigue is still there but the energy is increasing every day. I'm also able to function in the evening, helping to get the kids to bed at night.
Pain is a different issue. I have other issues these days that confuse it like pain in my hands and pain in my hips caused by having children. Also with me doing more my muscles are rebuilding after a long period of inactivity and I know from past experience that that is incredibly painful. However the way I am moving suggests the pain is reducing.
I’ve made some minor changes:
Breakfast smoothie: blueberries, bananas, coconut milk, almond butter, rolled oats and tofu/pea protein. I’ve started adding tumeric and cinnamon to the smoothie. After drinking it every morning I feel massively energised.
Snack: nuts and ginger tea.
Lunch: Vegetable soup at present I’m still keeping the butternut squash this week but I am not sure it’s doing as much as the blueberries at breakfast. However, I may have an allergy to courgettes which have been plentiful in my veg box so have been in every soup recently. With the soup I’m eating pickles and oatcakes with a protein heavy spread (hummus, nut butter, lentil pate etc) After a lot of trial and error with the sauerkraut I’m quite liking it with cider vinegar, hummus and green lentils on oatcakes.
Snack: a pear and a ginger tea.
Dinner: This is more varied. This week I’ve had Tofu kebabs with rice; chilli beans and rice; tofu steaks, homemade oven chips and oven baked butternut squash; a curry and rice to use up the chard (the one vegetable I don’t really like); lasagne made with TVP mince, vegan cheese sauce and courgette lasagne sheets; pasta bake with vegan cheese sauce and gluten free pasta and a vegan cottage pie using the TVP mince. For an occasional dessert I’ve been having fruit and coconut yoghurt, raspberries or a baked banana with nut butter and coconut cream
Supper: This has been a big change. I’ve been making yellow milk with tumeric, coconut sugar, soya spread and coconut milk. I expected it to be yucky but it’s actually quite pleasant. I’m finding I’m not needing the banana and oatcakes as well.
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Today I am tired and sore but I’ve been doing more than I have in weeks.
Really proud of myself as I have watched people eat cheese, meatball marinara Subway sandwiches and scones with strawberries. Not once have I been tempted to cheat and I’ve stuck to my diet.
Every breakfast I’ve been having my smoothie: blueberries, pea protein, almond butter, oats, banana and coconut milk.
Snack: Almonds or mixed nuts but no peanuts.
Lunch: Veggie Soup with oatcakes and protein (hummus, almond butter, vegan soft cheese) and the dreaded sauerkraut – I do need to make my own as the shop bought one has the emphasis on the sour rather than the kraut.
Snack: A pear or carrot sticks and hummus, and a cup of herbal tea.
Dinner: That has a bit more variety. I even made a rather lovely lasagne with vegan cheese sauce and courgettes instead of pasta. There’s been chilli beans, bean hotpot with rice, last night we were at the beach so I made a hobo dinner (veggies and chickpeas covered in harissa paste). If I’m hungry afterwards I’m having another banana. I must be eating about twenty bananas a week.
Supper: Banana, almond butter on oatcakes and a cammomile tea.
I’ve not been hungry at all because I’m probably eating more than I usually do.
Yesterday I went to the beach and had a proper swim in the sea (which may explain tired and aching). Its the first time I’ve swum in the sea for a very long time and I’d forgotten how good it can feel.
After forty eight hours of behaving myself with food I am pain free and full of energy. I’m a sceptic but this is the fourth time I’ve started this diet or one similar and the pain has vanished. This time I’m more hopeful and determined.
In fact I am so determined that I took my children to Subway for lunch and I drank a bottle of water whilst they ate. When it comes to a Subway meatball and cheese sandwich I have no willpower but today I watched my son eat one and didn’t even feel tempted.
For breakfast I’ve been making a smoothie of blueberries, bananas, rolled oats, pea protein and almond butter.
For lunch I’ve had vegetable soup. I’ve made sure it’s had butternut squash in every day but I’ve included other veggies from the vegetable box. Butternut squash and broad bean with a dash of liquid smoke was particularly yummy – it tasted like pea and ham.
Dinners have been Tofu steak, rice, cauliflower and mushroom sauce. Tonight I made another tofu steak with new potato crisps (homemade) and a salad (courgette, carrot, cabbage and white wine vinegar). Tomorrow I’m attempting a vegan, gluten free lasagne.
Today I got up without any struggle at 8am. I took the children to see Finding Dory at the cinema and came home and cooked dinner. Usually I’m thinking lets order pizza after a full day out. My daughter had hers in her room (first day out after having her cast off and she was knackered) and I managed to run up and down stairs three or four times.
My son’s bedtime was a treat rather than a chore I dread because I’m so sore by the evening.
I’ve managed to clean the fridge out but as yet haven’t started the kefir and the sauerkraut. I’m hoping to do so over the next couple of days.
Next June will be the 20th Anniversary of my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and my fortunes over the years have varied. During that time I’ve been forced to find the path that works best for me.
In 2014 I made a promise to myself that I would find a way to kick this damn illnesses tail rather than have it kick mine. I started off doing all the things I thought worked and in doing so worked out a few that didn’t. But I am much better than I ever remember being in my life to the point that when I go down it’s so much more difficult to deal with than it used to be.
Diet has always been key to my fatigue. Certain foodstuffs like pork and beef make it horrendous. I love food and working through various diets to find what works. Following a TV interview by Martin Shaw I went vegan (with a few relapses). Why I don’t know it was a gut thing, but it was the beginning of a new life for me.
Overnight my painful mouth, hives and my IBS disappeared. My fatigue has been more manageable and the pain is gratefully reduced.
Earlier this year I had a few months of feeling fantastic. It was a remission like I’d never had before. I listened to a web broadcast about leaky gut recently. Now as a long standing Fibromyalgia sufferer I am a skeptic. Over the years I’ve spent a lot of money trying to feel just a little better. There was no way I was signing up to anything but I was surprised to have him reel off several things I was doing when I was feeling great:
I was eating a lot of sauerkraut and pickles; I had a glut of blueberries in the freezer so ate a lot of them and there were loads of butternut squash and sweet potato in my veggie box. (Provided by the lovely people at Scotgro)
So from tomorrow I’m going to get the kitchen sorted:
We’ll see what happens. I’ll try to take pictures of the food this week as Banana-Bug is out of her cast and I feel more inclined to force her to help me.
I haven't changed my religious beliefs but this interview changed my mindset and life in a lot of ways. Why I still don't know - I was doing research for a book.
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